To My Man,

To My Man,

It is so overwhelming that many people love you. They have so much things to say about you and it is pretty amazing those are all happy crazy memories. Maybe, there are few not-so-bad memories but they always ended up laughing about it. You have touched their lives in so many ways which they will always remember and treasure. You have the gift of making people happy out of your quirkiness and sarcasm. You simplify complicated situations with your extraordinary yet make sense solutions. You would always brighten up someone else’s mood because you just wanted to goof around. In giving advice, you will always have a point. When you start to speak words through your wisdom, the serious you will always come out that will make someone left in tears. When someone in need, your helping hand does not hesitate to lend it to anyone. You will help in your own way and as much as you can. You are a shoulder to lean on to every one.

You are that kind of person that is why you are truly a gift to anyone you will meet.

So you are to me. You are the gift I didn’t ask for.

Hearing the people share their stories about you makes me tingle. Seeing them laugh because of your jokes makes me feel like the I am the luckiest girl in the world. You have no idea how you give me butterflies in my stomach every time I see you. You excite me every time you are around and even though you’re two blocks away from me I can already feel your presence. There might be different voices singing together but yours will always stand out. Your role in the family never fails to amaze me. You are the kindest and most reliable among them all and I am not being biased here. You showed many times how obedient and helpful you are to your family which makes me even more sure about you.

You are the best example of “Patience is a Virtue” because you have undeniably the longest patience on everything. I don’t know where it is coming from but it is also one of the reasons why maybe we’re still together because no one could ever handle my stubbornness the way you do. No matter how often we fight and for whatever reason it is, I still want you by my side and you never left as well.  You might disappointment me many times but I know it’s part of your whole being (though sometimes it really hurts). But, I will always accept you as far as I can. Your efforts are my weakness and it’s crazy how it makes me feel secured. Sometimes when you’re asleep and looks like an angel, I wonder if what comes into your mind to love me this far or what will make you not to love me. Questions I am afraid to ask sometimes.

Little did you know, that I like it sometimes when you are mad, when you are jealous, when you set curfews, when you restrict me talking to someone because you know their motives, when you interrogate me series of questions. I love all of it. When you show your superiority in me, that’s the time I will always feel secured. Submissive they say, but that is what I wanted knowing my capabilities are sometimes uncontrollable. Submitting to you might be the best decision I will ever have because I know you will help me turn into a better version of my self.

But behind your strong personality, you also cry like a baby. I already know that you’ve been hurt too much when you start to cry and it rips my heart apart. I can’t take the crying you because of us two, you are the strongest. Still, I am thankful that you can cry in front of me. Through that way, you are letting me know that I can be trusted. So, thank you.

When I am losing my trust in you, I would always stand firm once again and will always recall all the efforts and sacrifices you make just to keep this relationship going. And yes you are right, “Why would you waste our relationship over something that is not worth it?”. The words you’re uttering when I’m in doubt are filling up my soul which makes me feel secured once again. You have that talent of sincerity on making me feel good and assured. Thank you for investing on me and thank you for keeping that up. Thank you for loving me unconditionally.

Happy Birthday!

Go after your dreams!

Go after your dreams!

       Chasing our dreams will never be easy. You’ll go through different up and down pavements along the way. It will be a bumpy journey before you will finally reach the destination of your goals. Sometimes in our lives, we question ourselves if we are still on the right track going to our dreams. Our “what ifs” kept bombarding us and our “whys” kept haunting us. Confusions are creeping up on us which makes us tremble over and over again. We begin to doubt our capabilities to succeed because we thought there are no progress on what we are doing. We are envious to our colleagues because they are living their dreams. We are on the verge of giving up our dreams and be what it is. But hey, dreams might take some time to arrive but one thing for sure it will come in your most unexpected time and  in unexpected way.

                 For me, I know it is not there yet but it is just around the corner waiting for me. I know that my dreams are some kind of a blurry and I don’t even know where to start. I even read articles on finding your passions, things to know your passions and everything like that. I was desperate. But I am still hopeful and positive about my future, that God has better plans than me though it is kind of tricky sometimes, still I am optimistic about it. It is all about taking time slowly and analyzing things deeply. Listen to the things around you, listen to what your heart desires, listen where the calling is coming from. It’s no easy, I know, but trust in God that he will give you what is the best for you. That is a 100% win-win. Together with that, be persevere on everything you do. Keep the mantra of being optimistic and without knowing you almost reach the goals that you once dream of.

Don’t stop running after your dreams, don’t quit. You’ll get there, you’ll see. When you feel like failing, think of it like a trampoline keeping you bounce until you will finally reach the highest peak. “Never give up” as the saying goes which is in fact, true. Be a man to your dreams and live with it. Whatever your dreams may be, it might be small or big, it might be too far from reality or simple as plain but a dream will always be a dream. Don’t wait for the day you will regret everything and all you can say is, “How I wish I did everything”.

Remember! 

Remember! 

When he forgot to text you in the morning,Remember that he’s working.

When he didn’t ask to fetch you,

Remember that he is just tired.

When he left you hanging during your convo,

Remember he worked night shift.
If he still talk to her,

Remember they’re just friends.

If he refuse to do what you want,

Remember he is just being reasonable.

If he keeps on communicating with her,

Remember they’re in the same circle.
But if you feel tired from all of these,

Remember that it’s okay to stop.

If you feel like getting drunk,

Go buy yourself a rum.

If it is your only way for escape,

Find where the ocean is.
Remember, you are a gem.

You deserve the love from a King.

Don’t let him outsmart you.

You deserve the royal treatment.

You are not an option.

Leave when you feel like leaving.
A real man is true to his words.

Respects your decisions.

Accepts your opinions.

Love your whole being.

Four Major Reasons I Love The Beach

Four Major Reasons I Love The Beach

My childhood days were mostly spent at the seaside, playing with the sand or picking up abstract stones. It was simple back then, no iPads and iPhones, no internet, no selfies, just pure happiness with the nature. From then on, the sea has been my therapy for all kinds of stress I deal in life.

For the past weeks, my body was craving in making love with the beach. Then I found the reasons to let myself once again, meet my greatest love affair, the beach. Before leaving the fast phasing urban life, I was broken. I was dealing with midlife crisis, trust issues, self-pity, and anger. As a Christian, I was taught to pray FIRST whenever these kinds of instances happen to your life which I always do. But to be able to satisfy myself once and for all, I urge myself to find tranquility through the sound of the waves, the salty air, and the sand all over my body. Then, I found myself having these lists below after my beach getaway.

1) Beach gives you a peace of mind.

While I was on my to the beach, I had so much in mind like the questions why, how, and another why. There were so much to answer but I don’t know where to start. I admit that I am a worrisome child but whenever I create the idea of the ocean, it makes me calm and at ease. The starry night clears out my cloudy thoughts for once and makes me sigh, “why do I always worry? Life has so much to offer anyway”. The tranquility of the ocean gave me the time to breathe out all the unnecessary thoughts I had so I can organize everything on my mind again. With only the clear sky, the calm sea, and the fine sand, everything that boggled my mind faded away.

2) The beach can mend your broken heart.

         “Where do broken hearts go?”

So okay, I have to be honest. One of the reasons why I pushed through with my plans is because I was mending my broken heart. Before I left the real world I am living, my heart was filled with emptiness.I was mad and at the same time sad. I thought I cannot recover anymore and that I will be forever bitter about love. But the beach became my remedy. It gave me time to heal through the sereneness of the ocean and made me realize it is not the end of the world yet. Looking to the open ocean made me realize that just like the ocean, relationships will also experience storms and struggles but in the end it will be peaceful and serene just like before it used to be. The bad weather won’t stay forever but the peacefulness that envelopes the ocean will remain. And by that, I know that the pain I’ve been feeling is not forever.

3) It helps you forgive easily.

When you are holding so much grudge in your life and all you want is peacefulness, just try to escape to the beach for a little while. Give yourself a break from all the hatred you are feeling and breathe out all the bad vibes in your body with the help of the monotonous sound of the waves and the salty air that lingers on your body. Isolate yourself in a place where there is no sign of contact from the real world and all you can talk to are the people who are living the simple life. Count the stars as long as you can instead of counting the sheep or counting one to ten, you’ll be surprise how it can help to ease the anger. Without knowing, you will find yourself free from anger and grudge then that will be the time you can finally forgive.

4) It’ll help you understand about life.

“When life gives you lemon, make some lemonade” is one of the motto in life that keeps  lingering on my mind every time I face some unfortunate events in my life. But as I age, I learned to turn into the most calming place on earth, beach. For some it maybe the mountains and the forest but for me being a mermaid by heart, the sand and the ocean are my therapy. While the time running so slow, questions about life will start to have a clear answer and if not at least a hint on what you can do. Life is just having a regular break from all the stresses that we are going through and the ocean will always have an open arms to make all our worries fade away.

So, whatever reasons you have in mind if you want to go to the beach, just go. Don’t look back. You’ll never regret making your beach as your best friend. Hang loose!

It’s me,

Aira

To myself,

To myself,

Always remember that you, yes you, deserve to be love. You are worth having for and no one can ever let you feel unimportant. You are a gift to any man in this world and should not be taken for granted. Yes, being in a relationship is a group effort and should be worked together but keep in mind that you are a woman that needs more attention. That is your privilege as a woman. Remember, men can’t live without women but women can live without men. 

You deserve respect from the man you love. It’s the greatest affection that he can give to a woman like you. Your opinions are their basis on making decisions. You take part on his choices. Your suggestions are valued. That you will know, if he truly wants you in his life.

A woman like you deserve to be serenaded after your exhausting day. You don’t need to beg for his time because he must give it to you like he owes it to you. Please, don’t deprive yourself from the things you deserve.

You deserve nothing but the truth. No secrets. No lies. No under-the-table shenanigans. So, give yourself a favor and don’t settle for a mediocre love. You deserve the love of a real man. The love that is sincere and with integrity. Don’t fall into his flowery words but instead consider his actions. Observe how he treats you and your family. Discover how much effort he will put into you no matter how stubborn you are. Test if he can contain his patience despite your unpredictable moods. If you found this man, keep him.

Love,

Yourself.

So, you quit?

If you are reading this and about to quit, it’s okay. Quitting does not mean that you are weak to handle things that are beyond your control. It’s just that you know yourself too much and you know that you will be much braver if you quit.

Quitting means you’re getting out from your comfort zone because you seek for more challenging roles in life. And it is not being a loser. It is way more than a winner, my friend. Why? Because you wanted to become the person that you’ve always imagine. Soaring high up above the sky one day.

You’re quitting not because you are running away from the responsibilities but because you know your worth as a person and taking all the responsibilities in one hand is too much like it swallows your personality.

Quitting is knowing your priority, which one to give up and to save. You quit because there is something that you are starting to neglect and without knowing you’re starting to lose it. You know when to quit because you know your priority.

And sometimes, quitting can be a wake up call for someone out there for them to do something. You can be their sign.

It’s me,

Aira

Staying away for a little while.

Staying away for a little while.

 

Sometimes, you have to keep yourself away from the person you love even for a short period of time.

It’s not because you fell out of love.

It’s not because you’re being prideful.

It’s not because you are bored.

It is because you just need to take a break from all the pains it caused.

But, the love is still on fire.

You just want to take things slowly and recall why your relationship is still going strong despite all the heart breaking things happened.  You just want to know if the love you’re giving is too much that it chokes them. Or not enough that they feel neglected and unimportant.

To be away from them for awhile doesn’t make your love fade away but instead it makes you independent from their love. To free yourself from being clingy and give them the time to breathe. Without you.

To be away from them is not necessarily leaving them alone and broken but finding your worth as their other half. If they will look for you when you are trying to idle in a little while. Finding your place.

To be away from them makes you a whole person again after you have been broken into pieces and be able to love them again. Wholeheartedly.

That is, a part of the epitome of love.

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It’s me,

Aira