Be better or bitter. 

Be better or bitter. 

You know you’re not angry but frustrated on the things you thought it would be. On the things you expected it should be but only ended up disappointing you. We are created as human and pain is inevitable to us. You know you’re living when you can feel the pain. You know you’re living when the pain is kicking the real shit out of you. You know you’re living when the pangs is creeping up on you. But after all, everything will fade away sooner than you know so it is totally okay to embrace the pain you are enduring right now. You’re in pain because you are hurt. You are hurt because you know you have loved and it is really painful to be hurt by someone you have loved. You are hurt because you cared and you thought they cared too but they really don’t.

Maybe, your reason might be shallow for some but who cares, right? You’re already hurt anyway. All you have to do is to release the pain so you can move on and continue living. But sometimes, you’re too coward to express the pain in you because you know that you are NOT in the right place to be hurt. The most painful part of it is that you know you don’t have the right to feel that way because you’re not part of them and you know that they can go on with or without you. You would end up thinking that your pain is just a worthless drama just like the way Kim Kardashan cried over her lost diamond earing. It’s sad I know. But think differently and don’t be afraid to express the pain if it’ll make you feel better. Let it out but in control. Don’t let that pain supercede the love you have for them and use to understand the situation.

As the golden rules says, “Do unto others what you want others do unto you.”

The Line To Your Dreams

The Line To Your Dreams

I went out early from the office after two weeks of going home late. It was raining hard and I am expecting a heavy traffic too. Not just heavy traffic but also a long line of people waiting for a carpool ride home. And I was not wrong. From afar, I can already see people lining up and it was hella long! I have nowhere to go but to push thru. There’s no way going back to our office and wait for the line to subside since I was almost in the line.
Thank God I pushed thru because the people lining up was non-stop and they kept on adding even more. It was horrific if I’ll describe it. I can’t even see the first five people infront. It seems like we’re waiting for a mall to open because it’s on sale or even worse. Along with me were also employees trying to go home too despite the heavy rain that kept on falling. It looks like there is no hope of going home early because the line is not moving fast.

Half an hour has gone and I was still in the line and the line behind me was growing even more. I haven’t move that far from where I started to line up. But, still I was progressing. What’s even worse was the person ahead me was letting his friends cut the line. I was suppose to lose my patience but then all I thought was going home. I don’t have enough energy to deal with these people anymore. I let them.

I kept myself busy, until I notice that I was almost half way making it to the first in line. I already spent an hour waiting in line. But looking back, I realized I have gone far from where I started. Then, the line progress went fast until I have reached the front line. It means that I’m next on having my ride home. Finally!

This everyday scenario I am experiencing everyday as I go to work has the same reflection we have when we’re trying to reach our goals.

At first it’ll be hard as hell. You are at the verge of giving up. But don’t. Because it will be worthwhile.

 The long line of people will serve as your path reaching your goals, your dreams or whatever you call it. It will take time to finally make it to your destination. You might even be too far away from it. There’ll be no definite time on when you will reach your goal. You will always have that baby steps before reaching the peak. There will be some long pauses which you will thought that’s the end of everything. But it is not. If you give up easily, you won’t reach your destination. Don’t mind how long it might take but instead focus on what’s ahead and definitely you will go beyond.

The guys before me are the obstacles and hindrances that will push you to your limits. They’re going to distract you from your goals and will lure you away from it. You don’t need to listen to these negative vibes when you have goals to reach. They will tell you can’t do it. They will make you believe that it’s over. You’re not worth it of your dreams. If you let yourself stumble upon these, then you will really lose.

 Keep your head in the game. Focus on what is important. Let them throw rocks at you but always stand firm. Be bulletproof if needed.

Endings of your hardwork are always be beautiful. Your perseverance won’t disappoint you. Your sacrifices will give you the best pay off ever in your life. So keep moving forward. Never stop reaching your goals. Be the last man standing in this world full of challenges. You’ll reach the finish line before you know it.

It’s me,

Aira ❤️


To Millennials Like Me,

To Millennials Like Me,

We, millennials, always rush things. When we were in school, we wanted to graduate soon so we can earn money from our own sweat and blood. And if we started to work, we will find ourselves stuck on a crossroad and terrified what will tomorrow bring. We can’t wait to have our own “Bae” and assume that they’re the one and you can’t imagine life without them. And if we have found the right one, you can’t wait to walk down the aisle to tie the knot. Everything is fast phased and we tend to worry too much that we might get left behind. Well, that’s the main problem of millennials.We always wanted to get what we want on just a snap and we know that it’s rarely impossible unless we were born rich. But it’s not always like that.

Remember, before getting things that we really want, we must first work hard for it. Whether it’s a career or material things. There is no short cut for that but it’s totally worth it.

Don’t overthink and learn to take things slowly but first always make sure you know your destination. Be patient on things because everything has its own right timing. Tolerate the hardest situation because it will make you stronger. Stand for it and without you noticing it you already conquered the one you thought you can’t. If you still don’t know what you are going thru, it’s totally fine. Keep on moving and along the way, you will able to find out where you really belong. You have your own spot light and all you have to do is wait for it while you grind. If you hate your job, learn to love it. And if you still can’t, leave. Look for another one that might help you to find your passion.

Don’t mind those who are ahead of you. They also went into all the confusions and frustrations you are going through right now. We have different paths to take and it’s not all the same, you have to remember that. Set your own goals and do not limit yourself. Go further and seek more knowledge. Look at them as your inspiration in life as you are aspiring your own personal goals. Learnings never stop at school, it goes on and on. It might take long to reach the peak of your career, but as I said earlier it will always be worth it.

Fell in love as many times as you wish and enjoy the blissfulness it brings. Feel the pain of having a broken heart, it only shows that you’ve been in love and you took a risk. As Alfred Lord Tennyson said in his poem, Tis better to have loved and lost Than never to have loved at all.”

Take it slow and try to observe your surroundings. Spend more time with your family. Have quality time with your friends. Devote yourself serving the Lord. Take it easy and you’ll thank yourself in the future for not pushing you own self too much. And that’s how you will enjoy life.

It’s me,

Aira

To My Man,

To My Man,

It is so overwhelming that many people love you. They have so much things to say about you and it is pretty amazing those are all happy crazy memories. Maybe, there are few not-so-bad memories but they always ended up laughing about it. You have touched their lives in so many ways which they will always remember and treasure. You have the gift of making people happy out of your quirkiness and sarcasm. You simplify complicated situations with your extraordinary yet make sense solutions. You would always brighten up someone else’s mood because you just wanted to goof around. In giving advice, you will always have a point. When you start to speak words through your wisdom, the serious you will always come out that will make someone left in tears. When someone in need, your helping hand does not hesitate to lend it to anyone. You will help in your own way and as much as you can. You are a shoulder to lean on to every one.

You are that kind of person that is why you are truly a gift to anyone you will meet.

So you are to me. You are the gift I didn’t ask for.

Hearing the people share their stories about you makes me tingle. Seeing them laugh because of your jokes makes me feel like the I am the luckiest girl in the world. You have no idea how you give me butterflies in my stomach every time I see you. You excite me every time you are around and even though you’re two blocks away from me I can already feel your presence. There might be different voices singing together but yours will always stand out. Your role in the family never fails to amaze me. You are the kindest and most reliable among them all and I am not being biased here. You showed many times how obedient and helpful you are to your family which makes me even more sure about you.

You are the best example of “Patience is a Virtue” because you have undeniably the longest patience on everything. I don’t know where it is coming from but it is also one of the reasons why maybe we’re still together because no one could ever handle my stubbornness the way you do. No matter how often we fight and for whatever reason it is, I still want you by my side and you never left as well.  You might disappointment me many times but I know it’s part of your whole being (though sometimes it really hurts). But, I will always accept you as far as I can. Your efforts are my weakness and it’s crazy how it makes me feel secured. Sometimes when you’re asleep and looks like an angel, I wonder if what comes into your mind to love me this far or what will make you not to love me. Questions I am afraid to ask sometimes.

Little did you know, that I like it sometimes when you are mad, when you are jealous, when you set curfews, when you restrict me talking to someone because you know their motives, when you interrogate me series of questions. I love all of it. When you show your superiority in me, that’s the time I will always feel secured. Submissive they say, but that is what I wanted knowing my capabilities are sometimes uncontrollable. Submitting to you might be the best decision I will ever have because I know you will help me turn into a better version of my self.

But behind your strong personality, you also cry like a baby. I already know that you’ve been hurt too much when you start to cry and it rips my heart apart. I can’t take the crying you because of us two, you are the strongest. Still, I am thankful that you can cry in front of me. Through that way, you are letting me know that I can be trusted. So, thank you.

When I am losing my trust in you, I would always stand firm once again and will always recall all the efforts and sacrifices you make just to keep this relationship going. And yes you are right, “Why would you waste our relationship over something that is not worth it?”. The words you’re uttering when I’m in doubt are filling up my soul which makes me feel secured once again. You have that talent of sincerity on making me feel good and assured. Thank you for investing on me and thank you for keeping that up. Thank you for loving me unconditionally.

Happy Birthday!

Go after your dreams!

Go after your dreams!

       Chasing our dreams will never be easy. You’ll go through different up and down pavements along the way. It will be a bumpy journey before you will finally reach the destination of your goals. Sometimes in our lives, we question ourselves if we are still on the right track going to our dreams. Our “what ifs” kept bombarding us and our “whys” kept haunting us. Confusions are creeping up on us which makes us tremble over and over again. We begin to doubt our capabilities to succeed because we thought there are no progress on what we are doing. We are envious to our colleagues because they are living their dreams. We are on the verge of giving up our dreams and be what it is. But hey, dreams might take some time to arrive but one thing for sure it will come in your most unexpected time and  in unexpected way.

                 For me, I know it is not there yet but it is just around the corner waiting for me. I know that my dreams are some kind of a blurry and I don’t even know where to start. I even read articles on finding your passions, things to know your passions and everything like that. I was desperate. But I am still hopeful and positive about my future, that God has better plans than me though it is kind of tricky sometimes, still I am optimistic about it. It is all about taking time slowly and analyzing things deeply. Listen to the things around you, listen to what your heart desires, listen where the calling is coming from. It’s no easy, I know, but trust in God that he will give you what is the best for you. That is a 100% win-win. Together with that, be persevere on everything you do. Keep the mantra of being optimistic and without knowing you almost reach the goals that you once dream of.

Don’t stop running after your dreams, don’t quit. You’ll get there, you’ll see. When you feel like failing, think of it like a trampoline keeping you bounce until you will finally reach the highest peak. “Never give up” as the saying goes which is in fact, true. Be a man to your dreams and live with it. Whatever your dreams may be, it might be small or big, it might be too far from reality or simple as plain but a dream will always be a dream. Don’t wait for the day you will regret everything and all you can say is, “How I wish I did everything”.

Remember! 

Remember! 

When he forgot to text you in the morning,Remember that he’s working.

When he didn’t ask to fetch you,

Remember that he is just tired.

When he left you hanging during your convo,

Remember he worked night shift.
If he still talk to her,

Remember they’re just friends.

If he refuse to do what you want,

Remember he is just being reasonable.

If he keeps on communicating with her,

Remember they’re in the same circle.
But if you feel tired from all of these,

Remember that it’s okay to stop.

If you feel like getting drunk,

Go buy yourself a rum.

If it is your only way for escape,

Find where the ocean is.
Remember, you are a gem.

You deserve the love from a King.

Don’t let him outsmart you.

You deserve the royal treatment.

You are not an option.

Leave when you feel like leaving.
A real man is true to his words.

Respects your decisions.

Accepts your opinions.

Love your whole being.

Four Major Reasons I Love The Beach

Four Major Reasons I Love The Beach

My childhood days were mostly spent at the seaside, playing with the sand or picking up abstract stones. It was simple back then, no iPads and iPhones, no internet, no selfies, just pure happiness with the nature. From then on, the sea has been my therapy for all kinds of stress I deal in life.

For the past weeks, my body was craving in making love with the beach. Then I found the reasons to let myself once again, meet my greatest love affair, the beach. Before leaving the fast phasing urban life, I was broken. I was dealing with midlife crisis, trust issues, self-pity, and anger. As a Christian, I was taught to pray FIRST whenever these kinds of instances happen to your life which I always do. But to be able to satisfy myself once and for all, I urge myself to find tranquility through the sound of the waves, the salty air, and the sand all over my body. Then, I found myself having these lists below after my beach getaway.

1) Beach gives you a peace of mind.

While I was on my to the beach, I had so much in mind like the questions why, how, and another why. There were so much to answer but I don’t know where to start. I admit that I am a worrisome child but whenever I create the idea of the ocean, it makes me calm and at ease. The starry night clears out my cloudy thoughts for once and makes me sigh, “why do I always worry? Life has so much to offer anyway”. The tranquility of the ocean gave me the time to breathe out all the unnecessary thoughts I had so I can organize everything on my mind again. With only the clear sky, the calm sea, and the fine sand, everything that boggled my mind faded away.

2) The beach can mend your broken heart.

         “Where do broken hearts go?”

So okay, I have to be honest. One of the reasons why I pushed through with my plans is because I was mending my broken heart. Before I left the real world I am living, my heart was filled with emptiness.I was mad and at the same time sad. I thought I cannot recover anymore and that I will be forever bitter about love. But the beach became my remedy. It gave me time to heal through the sereneness of the ocean and made me realize it is not the end of the world yet. Looking to the open ocean made me realize that just like the ocean, relationships will also experience storms and struggles but in the end it will be peaceful and serene just like before it used to be. The bad weather won’t stay forever but the peacefulness that envelopes the ocean will remain. And by that, I know that the pain I’ve been feeling is not forever.

3) It helps you forgive easily.

When you are holding so much grudge in your life and all you want is peacefulness, just try to escape to the beach for a little while. Give yourself a break from all the hatred you are feeling and breathe out all the bad vibes in your body with the help of the monotonous sound of the waves and the salty air that lingers on your body. Isolate yourself in a place where there is no sign of contact from the real world and all you can talk to are the people who are living the simple life. Count the stars as long as you can instead of counting the sheep or counting one to ten, you’ll be surprise how it can help to ease the anger. Without knowing, you will find yourself free from anger and grudge then that will be the time you can finally forgive.

4) It’ll help you understand about life.

“When life gives you lemon, make some lemonade” is one of the motto in life that keeps  lingering on my mind every time I face some unfortunate events in my life. But as I age, I learned to turn into the most calming place on earth, beach. For some it maybe the mountains and the forest but for me being a mermaid by heart, the sand and the ocean are my therapy. While the time running so slow, questions about life will start to have a clear answer and if not at least a hint on what you can do. Life is just having a regular break from all the stresses that we are going through and the ocean will always have an open arms to make all our worries fade away.

So, whatever reasons you have in mind if you want to go to the beach, just go. Don’t look back. You’ll never regret making your beach as your best friend. Hang loose!

It’s me,

Aira