“Honesty is such a lonely word
Everyone is so untrue
Honesty is hardly ever heard
And mostly what I need from you” – Honesty, Billy Joe
Is it enough to love the person all over again hoping that eventually you will learn to let go all the pain they caused you? Hoping that they will prove to you that they are still worth your trust. Is love enough to fill up all the empty spaces that broken trust left? Is it? You come to a point that trust is simply just a word because you have lost the real essence of it and love has become an obligation to do. You are left with nothing but the pain that broken promises and betrayals have caused you. How can you move on when you are still stuck in the reality that trust is no longer there? How will you explain to everyone that love is not enough to ease all the pain?
Love won’t exist without its own elements. It is made up of different aspects such as trust, honesty, openness, perseverance, and respect. If any of these is lacking, love can’t work alone. You can’t say you love the person if you keep on losing their trust because of your own desire, because of your selfishness. How can you say you love them if you let them believe all the stories you made up just to cover up your lies? Is it love when you keep on doing the same exact mistake because you know that “sorry” will put everything back to normal again? Is that really the concept of love? I guess not. Maybe you can say you love them but you have to prove it. You have to show it. You have to make them feel it. You have to earn it. Because love alone is not enough.
Now, if you’ve been through a lot of pain because of all these dip shits, make time for yourself. Contemplate things. Rehabilitate yourself from all the lies, the betrayals, and even from the people who hurt you. It’s time to think of yourself first and love everything about you. There’s nothing wrong with that. As one of my friends told me, “Know your worth, Aira” and then I realise, fuck it! I am worth it. You are worth it. You are the best thing that anybody could have. And if that person really loves you, they will find ways to win you back. They will not just sit there and regret everything. If that’s true love, they’ll change even it means they need to start back to zero again. They will try harder to prove that they are worth having again. I think, that’s the concept of love. You gotta learn it.